please welcome me. I'm back at livejournal. Shifted again,i know. haha!

5 weeks ago.
And i have no f idea why i have this acc. Ohh,to view shikin's blog. In case she got private post meant for friends only. lols.

I should do something to this blog. Like,it's like the same as my BS which i prefer BS of course.

It's 5.25am and damn! I Haven't sleep. AMAZING!

I got 3 more months to collect my money for ayid's birthday.
I got few things in my mind.
Underwater world,or buy him a nice top or i thought of buying him a g-shock watch. Shit ah. I need a job like badly!

"When i grow up, i wanna be famous, i wanna be a star,i wanna be in movies. "

okay,obviously i am not talking about that.. haa.
What i'm gonna say here is that,i have to think bout future.
Atiq is freaking me out and she's giving me fucking 3 years to prepare myself for marriage.
Gila kah?
Tsk!

What i have in my mind is that,i want my malay dancers members to dance for me.
Maybe i regard that as my wedding gift? tsk!
Okay,that is being traditional.
If being westernized,maybe i will do something like Viva la bam's wedding.
I love it! haa

okay,whatever it is,i have to think now.
I have to retake my o's c.science and i thought of working too.
And after i'm done with my o's and insyallah if i pass,and officially 5 o lvl passes,
i want to pursue to Nafa and take under NIE as well.
And i will become art teacher.
It's like,i love art and i always wanted to be a teacher.
So it's like the best of the both worlds.
Or maybe i should consider going in NIE straight.
And become a malay teacher.
hmm..All i wanted is a stable job.

I did some discussion with my mom just now.
And she agree on what i plan to do.
As what people say,we can only plan,but Allah who destine for us.
Is destine the right word? lol. i have no idea. hahaha!
Please Allah,i really want to be a teacher badly.
Please fulfill my dreams.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

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Not really active here. When i post something here,will state in my post at bs.

How long must i endure this feeling eh?
Ahh,k whatever,really.
I can't be bothered.
It's all in your mind.

heartpain is here again.
Tsk. I don't know i broke off like zillion times.
And i think that's it!
Seriously,i'm tired that things didn't work out.
We keep saying we work things out.
But we didn't.
Pain.